Even if you just did the worst thing anyone could ever do, but repent and ask for His mercy, I believe you will find it.

In affliction and asking Him for things, it isn’t about what I want, it is about the Lord’s will. I am still learning to be submissive to His will. Although, I have made up my mind it is what I desire.

If I was rich, and possessed all the treasure of the earth, how could I forget Jesus Christ, who I value way above any of those things.

In poor desolation I did not turn away for good. I always turned back because He always led me back.

I consider all other knowledge worthless compared to the worth of knowing the love of Jesus Christ – this love demonstrated by the cross.

One small act of kindness means more to God than 1000 empty words said in prayer.

When we pray the Chaplet of Divine Mercy and call on His mercy, even celestial beings are unable to carry out judgment.

Don’t worry about being in extremes in your life, or going to extremes. The Bible says it isn’t good to go to extremes, but it says that, not because it is bad for God, but because it is bad for us (our well-being). Consider all the energy you have exerted in all your life. It probably doesn’t amount to the tailwind of a shooting star in energy.

I felt so far from Him in the hospital. When I went, it felt like He didn’t come with me. I prayed fervently in a state of exhaustion and confusion, but I didn’t feel His presence. I didn’t know if I was ever coming home or not (my worldly home). I have never in all my recollection ever felt pain that severe for that long before in all my life.

I remember when I was a child with an ear infection, I cried to God for help, and then whole night passed by in what seemed like a literal minute. I know for a fact that I didn’t fall asleep.

For the carnal flesh is unable to keep the will of God, even when it desires to.

How will they ever repent until someone they’ll hear tells them? But if they didn’t hear Jesus, why would they hear anyone else? This was me for a long time. It took me a long time to actually hear what He was saying. For a long time, I was just looking and not seeing. And God was more patient with me than I deserved. Maybe the message of repentance, which is important, is drowned out in people’s eyes by everything else?

The Lord blesses us all in various ways – according to our needs and desires, in His goodness.

I do not desire to be separated from Christ – though I take His command and go where He sends me, even to death for Him. In fact, I have already died for Him (figuratively).

I would gladly be God’s prisoner. I am not even worthy of that title myself.

He has blessed me more than I deserve. Others would deserve the blessings more than me.

I was saying there were things I wished I had knowledge of so that I didn’t have to rely on faith. I guess this is just resistance to the requirements of God. I can bear the season not knowing and keeping the faith. There are always the places God can test our faith the best.

Turning down the Lord’s blessing or presence over a lack of perceived self-worth is a stumbling block. You should never turn down His blessings. Do not reject His plans for your life.

Maybe I will get a chance on day to go to the Garden of Gethsemane. Everybody wants to find the Garden of Eden, I just want to go to the Garden of Gethsemane.

I told people they weren’t allowed to give up, because God hasn’t let me even though I have pleaded with Him countless times. If we give up before we finish the race, we will look back and regret it.

I have wanted to withdraw from others and spend a whole night in prayer, but things keep pulling me away – sometimes it is others, other times distractions, and even others, a weakening of the faith in me.

The Lord will provide.

Since God is love, then faith is good. If God weren’t love then there would be no reason to have faith. If He wasn’t love, then faith is in vain. God is love.

I forgive every name that has wronged or hurt me. Do not even bring them up in the judgment Lord, because of your great love.

Though death is clinging to my soul, I am not afraid. Even if my soul is cast out to death, I will not fear. The Lord will renew me in Him. He will sustain me all the days of my life.

It is my place to hope, even for those lost in darkness. There is still hope. There is still faith. There is still love. Even shining through the darkness.

The only thing I am is God’s. And that is all I need to be; all I want or desire.

Sometimes a lack of understanding is simply an opportunity to trust in God.

I laid down and slept. I awoke for the Lord sustained me. 

I was struggling terribly there for I don’t know how long… several weeks. Interior and exterior trials. It has been a while it feels since I have had any consolation. Though I know He isn’t withholding them out of anger at me. He expects me to get through it with His hand in mine, though in an invisible and unseen way a lot of the times.

This is a time of spiritual dryness, where worldly problems are springing up all over the place, and I feel as though my spirit is shriveling up. I haven’t felt any consolation in my prayers, or even complaints, for I don’t know how long. My spiritual life is dry and my worldly life is a torment worse than death.

Maybe I am just having trouble remembering the consolations midst the torments. I don’t ask for, nor necessarily need them. Though I have been asking for His help and needing it every day. I guess this means I don’t want consolation, I want deliverance.

How can I ask the Lord to deliver me from His own hand though. I would hopefully never come to ask for that. I want deliverance from sorrow, and suffering, and my own misery, but if those things are in the hand of the Lord for me, then it is what I should accept. If even the Lord has formed me in His hand, with an encompassing evil or darkness, then I should still say “Bless His Name.” For the Lord forms darkness and creates evil. Should we only expect good days from the Lord and not bad?

Though the days of evil seem long, and it looks like the darkness has triumphed, there will come that day when the true light will be seen and darkness and evil will be no more. He will live in us and we will live in Him. The light shines in the dark, and the darkness has not overcome it.

This is the story of mercy and love – this life, this world, this creation. It is not a story of hate or anger. It is not a story of defeat. It is a story of victory in Christ, over every power and authority – the power of death and the power of sin.

While you live in a sinful body, sin has authority over you. You are it’s slave. The difference between a slave and a servant is that a servant serves willingly and a slave doesn’t. So then sometimes, while we would choose to serve God, we are given over to the authority of sin living in us and can’t wrestle ourselves out of it. Only by calling on the authority of Jesus then, can we hope to escape. His authority is always greater over us than the authority sin might have in us.

I have at times, noticed whenever I hear an angel present, a sense of great peace to the point that, even if I was previously losing my mind in anxiety and terror one moment ago, when that peace enters it wipes it away.

People say that others are placed in your life by the devil. However, this isn’t true. Everybody in your life was placed there by God, even demons if they be present. God uses those around us to test us. Yes, even our worst enemies. What the devil would use to lead away, Jesus uses for our good.

Satan came to me and told me that many were granted greater faith because of him… even life preserving faith. I am inclined to believe him in that at least, though I can’t judge the intentions of his work.

God speaks in ways that are inaudible and invisible. He speaks in the secret place in our hearts and souls – in both believers and non-believers. I believe He does this for everyone, even the enemies of the cross.