Numerous blasphemies were coming to my lips. I had a strange desire to hurt Him – to cause Him pain and frustration like I was feeling. I don’t see where those things spring up, yet the devil can use our forgetfulness and anger against us.

The Lord accomplishes the purposes of His will, even in creatures who aren’t aware and in ways we can’t fully understand yet.

I feel as though I have been led away in frustration the past few days. They are just gone in total frustration. Without my confidence, I would give up. I didn’t notice any help in it, even though I was praying.

Though the strong falter under heavy weights, one who walks by perfect faith can carry anything. No burden seems too great for someone whose faith is perfected.

One who practices the faith and acknowledges the Son of God, Jesus Christ, is of God. One who does not acknowledge the Son is the spirit of the Antichrist. Let this be a sign to those who need it midst confusion.

If someone accepts Christ, then receive them, though test what they say. If someone doesn’t accept Jesus then don’t accept their teachings. For the teachings of love and faith in Christ are all that counts.

If the Lord decides to keep me in darkness, not knowing what to do with trials, then I accept and say “Bless the Lord.” If He decides to offer me direction then I pray for the grace to keep His will and say “Bless the Lord.”

So many problems spring up that I haven’t seen a solution to the last ones before seven more appear.

If I wasn’t willing to bear it, I would be almost envious of people with everyday problems. Yet, even those, once they have run their full course, can be almost unbearable.

We tend to over-exaggerate small problems and try to make large problems smaller. More manageable.

Remember: the times it feels Jesus is further away, it just might happen that He is closer.  The moments where you feel unworthy to stand in His presence, as though you shouldn’t accept communion with Him, or that He wouldn’t want you to pray to Him – those are moments of trial. God is testing you to see if you will still turn to Him, with faith despite your misery. Those are moments especially, when you should say “Bless the Lord” and keep the faith your heart is pointing you to.

There was peaceful times in great tribulation, and over-sensitivity in matters of little consequence. Sometimes it isn’t our greatest struggles that are our hardest. It is the little things we struggle with the most. This is why there is great merit in everyday suffering and obedience in little matters.

It is better to be honest with God, even if you have complaints, then to try to cover up the truth from Him – in prayers. A pure intention from the heart, even if it is a complaint, is better than false praising intentions.

Let the glory of your mercy shine on all creation. Let every sin committed against you that has hurt you in ways you never deserved become to us something that we don’t: an opportunity for you to show us your love, grace, goodness and mercy – even in the face of ingratitude. Though let us who are aware thank the Lord.

In these hectic days, rise even if it is at midnight, and pray. Even if it is only long enough to say three “Our Father” prayers.

“Through strife and division many err in the faith in their effort to prove it to others. It is sometimes better to leave people in a state of unbelief rather than drive them in the opposite direction (even if the intention might’ve been pure).”

What is a “wise” person without patience. Patience is a virtue you can’t learn to possess through knowledge or wisdom. It is a virtue of holiness.

I desire to give my life to Jesus utterly if (and only if) and when He would receive it.

When I was praying yesterday, I either became my spirit while still in the body or my body became like a spirit. I noticed that I was a will while I was making the sign of a cross and blessing the Lord. It is hard to explain the feeling.

What is impossible to God? When should we ever cast aside His mercy? Nothing and never.

One should always keep a certain degree of doubt concerning matters relating to where “spiritual gifts” come from. I have found there are at least two exceptions to this that I know of: Holy energy and love. Love comes directly from God, and holy energy comes from heaven, His home, because God is there. Holy energy is not the same as life force. It is a distinct life force and you can recognize it for what it is.

Maybe Jesus is allowing my self-will to be destroyed, but in this destruction of self is a place of eternal safety.

I was told that God designed things in such a way that it was “impossible” for Him to take in anyone who willfully rejects Him in the spirit. Like Jesus is barred from entering, even if He wanted to – this due to the nature of what a will is.

Love for enemies is the height of self-control and the perfection of love.

Nothing kills or destroys as fast as confusion.

Heaven is not a location that is up or down. It is within; in the heart where love resides. This is where God lives in us, and God lives in heaven.

Of all good things – even greater than faith – love is the greatest. There is nothing more important for us to do than to love each other.

All things, even the smallest, are sustained and decided by God.  God leads us all along – some in honor, others in dishonor. You have to say “Let the Lord’s will be done. Let my name be forgotten. I deny myself and accept Him. I live in His name.”

There are many who love Him even, who don’t understand that they need to deny themselves. This was me for a long time.

Let His will live in you.

Judge not – not even yourself. The Lord judges.

The times when things seem to big for us: the Lord uses these times to teach us to trust in Him. He uses them to grow our faith. He uses situations that seem hopeless to grow hope and teach us to lean on Him.

Just because it seems hopeless, doesn’t mean it is. It is just a season of trials designed to grow us. God sometimes chooses those He wants closest to Him for just those seasons for a while. He puts you in a place where you tell Him “Jesus, I can’t do it” and then Jesus say “You can, but only through me.”

I was just laughing because I remembered writing that heaven is a place in the heart, and yet a lot of times love is a torment rather than a paradise. I’m sure many have this experience.

It is impossible for anything that God has consecrated – for anyone to defile it. What God has decreed clean, nobody can make it unclean. There is no fear of the devil, evil, temptations or anything else in this. God’s decrees are absolute. His judgment is all that counts.

Jesus consecrates us and makes us clean according to His foreknowledge and will for us.

Trying to resist the will of the Lord invites nothing but frustration. Practice surrendering to His will at every opportunity. Get better at this: when met with frustration, quickly say the following “I trust in your will God. Let it be done.”