I have felt such strong love for Him – an encompassing passion for Him like I have never felt before, for anything or anyone else.

I desired His Word so bad I felt like I would die if I didn’t receive it.

When we ask for special grace from the Lord, I have found a lot of times, it either requires suffering, is suffering, or becomes suffering. I think this is because God calls us in grace into His glory and wants to unite us to Him through suffering in a special way.

When you fall, do not lose heart. Rather, look at it as an opportunity to improve and grow your faith. In this way, the worst sinners are lifted even higher, and those in the lowest places are lifted higher still.

There is a time and place for everything done under the sun. Those things a lot of times, require waiting.

Patience is the true trial of an obedient soul.

I have found sometimes that the blessings and reassurances sometimes cause me to suffer more than adversity or torments.

Love is the greatest among the blessings, graces and good things. It is the catalyst from which all other graces flow.

This is a worldly notion I agree with: “Idle hands are the devil’s playthings.”

Don’t forget, in times of trouble, say “Jesus, I trust in you.” to yourself as many times as necessary.

I was laying there begging Jesus for help. Then I told Him ‘Your Will be done, not mine” in surrender, and immediately I started feeling better. Then I prayed for a few hours.

Bless the Lord, oh soul. Bless the Lord. In times of trial, this is where you will find victory.

Remember: Jesus doesn’t reward for results, but for suffering undergone in His name.

I desire my heart to be a place God dwells on earth as it is in heaven. A resting place for Him – with joy.

I desire to make Him happy. I pour myself out to the cause of somehow pleasing Him, even if I fail every day in many ways. Even if I fail completely, His grace still covers me.

One must be willing for self-mortification, but one must also practice self-mercy as well. It is one of the least of the ways of practicing mercy, but it is still vital.

Jesus was obedient, even to His enemies. Obedience is a powerful virtue. Look at every command given by a superior as coming from Christ Himself. Carry out these commands accordingly.

God chooses certain souls to undergo His wrath, just like Jesus, His Son. These will greatly share in the glory of Christ. If you feel you are under God’s wrath, don’t fear and take heart. These souls undergo wrath despite innocence.

If you struggle to trust in Him in life, you will in judgment. You should meditate on His suffering and mercy as often as possible.

Jesus never leaves us, even when we don’t feel His presence at all He is still there. Even in the worst of times, He is there hidden.

I was going through all sorts of internal and external ordeals there for a few days. I felt better last night and today. I sensed a shift in me then, a shift into darkness – like I was plunged into a dark place. This was the first time the internal and external darkness affected me so bad.

Everyone who chooses this particular path will meet a very difficult and important trial, one way or another. It is a trial of our love – loving enemies.

It wasn’t a command because it is okay if you can’t do it. However, if you can then you should.

I told His holy people, that I expect them to do whatever the Lord commands, even if it is coming against me.

I am not afraid – even if I am to be thrown into the sun – I am not afraid. Jesus will be with me through any and every fire I walk through. He will be with me for eternity.

Who cares what people say about me. I am nobody anyway. My name counts for nothing. Self-glory counts for nothing here. All that counts is eternal glory – glory in Christ.

The Spirit of the Lord will move again – as He has been doing. Unshakable, but willing to move or be moved.

That I found a sense of spiritual peace in so many “physical world” assaults is a blessing.

It is good practice to suffer in silence. When we speak about our problems, we have a habit of adding to them.

It takes more strength to be insulted and remain silent than it does to lash out with hasty words. It takes even more to return those insults with kindness. Yet this is the way of the cross.

Though I am in crushing darkness in a tribulation, occasionally I will feel the presence of a greater light than I have ever had. Especially during prayer. But then this light eventually leaves discreetly.

I hear the angels working around me. I have even seen one once.

Remember, even the things that seem absolutely terrible might actually be blessings in disguise, or lead to them.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not into your own understanding.