I have seen people shine in the Holy Spirit while in church. Their glow Is almost surreal. Like an encompassing holy energy radiating from within and surrounding them.

If you can’t get to the worldly church of God, or they can’t help you, seeking the heavenly church of God isn’t so bad.

There are unexpected times where I am caught up in the adoration and joy of His goodness more frequently lately. Though the suffering has also picked up a little. I have been praying more frequently, and especially in the hospital, though I kept forgetting what I was doing.

Thank you God, for not abandoning me in my darkest hours.

I noticed it is easier to immerse myself in the adoration of God’s heart when I am more joyful or cheerful. I have been mostly cheerful today.

In suffering, love is crystallized. It endures. But not without Jesus.

Each individual that comes to know Jesus, jealously guards Him in their hearts. Their hearts are pulled two different ways: (1) desiring to be the closest to Jesus and have a sole special and profound relationship with Him, (2) knowing the love they have for others, desiring the same for them.

I can’t begin to imagine the joy and happiness found in heaven in the visible, audible, and personal presence of Jesus Christ.

Sometimes power comes to me in the form of strength in my bones or deep within my soul – other times power as life force – other times power of holiness in that life force.

Other times it feels like I am breathing a breath that brings me back to life in part, or wakes me up a little in spirit.

I was attacking God in a great deal of pain, and a mighty power entered me, and all my strength left me. I somehow became too weak to do anything but fall on my hands and knees in prayer.

Faith isn’t an “I’ll give you whatever you want” gift. It is an “I’ll do the Lord’s will” gift.

Faith says “If Satan or anyone else whispers 10,000 lies into my ears I will not fear.” How powerful faith can be in this can’t be stressed enough.

Almost 12 years ago, I was in the spirit. I had awoken from being asleep. I don’t know how I knew it (because I couldn’t feel it) but there was a letter in my hand. No questions came to me like they would’ve in the body. I opened the letter to read it. Once the envelope was opened, I felt my soul fall back into my body. It must not have been the right time to read it, but someone wanted me to know that they had something to tell me. The fact that I opened it seemed to be a promise that I would get to read it at some point (at the right time).

I feel a deep and powerful love moving in me at times in Jesus. It is an overwhelming love that I feel towards Him. And I have also felt Jesus’s love towards me – I noticed it in His very words and also in His moving in my spirit. It is inexpressible, overwhelmingly powerful and pure.

It is better to be grounded in the positive of eternity than the fleeting concerns and passings of the day.

I try to measure myself up to the joy the Lord brings me and I feel like a tiny wisp who is overcome in His goodness. It is an ocean of joy. I find this to be a pleasant suffering, even one that could kill me in my weakened state. I was unable to continue reading His word today because of it. I felt that if I read more, it could kill me.

How can I measure up to the life God called me to? If it is a measure of holiness, there are many holier than I am. If it is a measure of faith, there are many more faithful than me. If it is a matter of works, there are many with less sins and more good deeds.

LOVE YOUR ENEMIES. Love fulfills the entire law and prophets.

Even though I walk in a dark place, I walk by the light of the LORD, Jesus Christ.

The full depth of knowledge is hidden in Christ. The LORD judges everything in truth. He recognizes it. He is it.

I think people underestimate the power of prayer. People don’t pray as often as they might because they do not have knowledge of the power in it. It is the power of God’s holy ones.

There is no fear in making requests to God, especially when it aligns with God’s will to grant it. When Jesus answers prayers in alignment with His will, He brings God glory and us grace.

Though there are seasons where the answering of some prayers, even in alignment with His will, might be delayed to arrive at the proper time.

I was terrified when I read “If you ask anything in my name I will grant it.” I broke down in tears because of what I had asked for. There is hardly anything that could be scarier if you lack faith. But He answers prayers in accordance with His perfect will.

In my life, I have found only one boast about myself, and even that I am not worthy of: that I belong to the LORD. It is my only boast in myself.

Suffering brings us glory in Christ. Humiliation brings us humility. Love renders service.

There are many people who have even more faith than me, and less reason to have it. This makes me happy in part. People who pray even more than I do, those who never had a life like mine where His presence is so apparent to me.

I have been praying a lot the past couple of days. But I have also felt closer to Him the past couple of days. Don’t leave.

Those who stand before the LORD of the earth, can’t stand without Him, not even in the anointing. His Spirit alone can make us stand. In the judgment, no one can stand without His spirit.

There is a popular saying: “The path to hell is paved with good intentions.” I have come to realize that this is a worldly judgment. God may not always judge the results of our actions, but I feel like I know He judges the secret things always: every intention of hearts. The world judges results because results are what it sees. God judges intentions… those secret things in us that even we can’t completely understand.

The world is suffering and dying for lack of faith – and sin without reparations in Christ lead to suffering and dying.

Those who suffer with faith, repentance and patience in His name suffer for glory.

As Christ suffered for the joy set before Him, we must also be willing to submit to God’s will. His power is made perfect in our weakness.

God’s blessing don’t depend on our results. Even if we fail, He is still there.

If we fail to live up to what God has called us to, in whatever way we feel about our calling, it doesn’t matter. God still saves us and will bless us all the same.

Jesus was already healing and casting out demons when He was alive. He did so through the forgiveness of sins and for His glory.

Sin leads to suffering, sufferings leads to repentance and forgiveness, and forgiveness leads to the glory of God and our glory in Christ. Sometimes suffering just leads to glory alone, without cause, but to great and positive effect.

If there is any glory in us, it is always the glory of God. It is His that He gives us.

I just had a strange notion that allergies are a result of the sin of idolatry of things of the world. Greed is another form of idolatry – the idolatry of money. I just realized that saint’s vision might’ve been talking about torments similar to the sin. Suffering in ways dependent on the sins committed. The suffering of denying His name is separation.

To not have the love of God in you is one of the worst desolations we can experience. The soul should not experience desolation of His apparent absence, because one should be able to find Him anywhere. It is just when it loses sight of Him, it feels desolate, not like He isn’t there.

I was laying on the floor begging God because of the sickness that came on me.

The warrior part of my heart finds a temporary type glory in war. But the only lasting glory is found in peace and that, peace with God.

Part of God’s glory is making us to be at peace with Him, and that is an eternal glory in itself.